My film friend and I wanted to enter the Project Direct contest last year, but we weren't old enough. Now, that we're old enough, she's in another country.
But maybe we could Tim Gun it and "make it work"??? Maybe?? Hm...

Trying to stay happy today because my teacher cancelled class without telling me, so I could've had 5 more hours of sleep. -_-"
I also have biology class today... And that fucking blows. I HATE biology. Even though it's easy, it's just so... dull...

I'm typig anything that comes to mind so this entry isn't going to make sense... Then again, my entries never DO make sense, but whatever.
I KNOW I can get out of here after this semester and I KNOW that I can acheive my dreams so why the hell am I spazzing out?

I guess it's because I constantly doubt myself. I used to be confident but in the last two years I've been torn down so many times. Even when something is easy, I act like it's a life or death situation. My anxiety is high and I find myself going into the bathroom expecting to vomit from nerves, but it won't surface. I sit in the stall and just breathe, reflect, hate, hope...

In psychology class, there's this thing called a "personal fable" that adolescents go through. It's when people think that no one understands what they are going through. We all know that that's false, but I can't help but think that it's true. But then there are other times where I sit and observe people and wonder if they are going through the same thing and if it's all just a facade. We all have facades. Even the people who claim to be "real". And I wish that people would just tear them down and reach out. We don't need drugs that capitalize on our fears, we just need each other.

I have so much to say and it's all roaring in my mind like boiling water, but I have to go now. =/
God damn biology class.

fuck everything.
My parents have finally accepted that I want to major in art. After church, they were talking to some acquaintances who asked them what school I was going to and what my major is. My parents told them that I was in comp sci and graphic design and the people told us that their son majored in graphic design and went on to work for Apple and Nike and gets paid more than them and they're in the medical field.

So pretty much, I'm searching for art schools in MD with my parents right now . Except, I want to go to a liberal arts school and the only things I'm finding are fine arts schools. =/
It will most likely be in Baltimore because it's one of the top 20 cities for art. It will probably be UMBC.
I'd go to MICA, but that's fine arts and Loyola is private, expensive, and a tad bit snobbish.
So, UMBC it is! I have a better chance going there than I do UMD-College Park, and even though it's farther from my house, it offers both graphic design and comp sci in case I change my mind.

But, yeah, I just wanted to thank the few of you who supported me. It meant/means a lot.

"You must always remember that your talent is a gift that can be taken away at any time. Sometimes it is taken away by injury, age, or even a car accident. You must train like there is no tomorrow. When you perform or compete, do it like it is the last thing people will ever see you do. Give a performance that is worthy of remembrance should you not be able to do anything again, ever."